A Priceless Journey With...You

Seriously I don’t have any idea of the word ‘you’ in the title. That ‘you’ means so much, I guess. And then I tried to make it simple like ‘you’ for them who placed in this unshaped heart #tsaaah

For the first, I’d think that ‘you’ goes to everyone beside me but let’s think about it again. That’s a lot of them hahaha Then why I chose to categorized it as a person I was in love with? Well yeah, too simple to talk about, right? Besides that, I’ve discussed about the friends of mine few months ago. I don’t wanna talk about family now, so one special person is so undeniable topic.

Named him as F.

Oh God, I’d love to write his name completely. Ok, I had been lost.

Farok Perdana Kapoh.

Surely, I don’t want him to look at here. I have no place to hide, you know.

 I chose him. I chose to write about a priceless journey with him for a month, seems like that. He was my senior in high school, one year older than me. He was my friend for about 6 years. Until now, we live too close, in the same neighborhood. Absurd? Yes, it is.

Called it as a joke through BBM. We were friend. When it went to be a randomly chat, I never ever think that we’re gonna make it real.

In short, by a joke, we putted ourself in a relationship. Yes, we did.

He called me baby, I called him honey.

He texted me ‘I love you’, I texted him ‘I miss you’

For a while, I’ve been thinking that “It’s still a joke.”

Then one day, I don’t know how, but I did falling in love with him. Perfectly did falling in love with that man! I’ve never been in love with him before. That was the first time.

Okay, let’s breathing, guys...

Love comes slowly day by day in my heart.

The shocking moment? He asked me to return to Allah’s hand, talk to Allah, praying, shaum, and other activities about come closer to Allah SWT. He asked me to introduce him as my boyfriend to my parents. Didn’t it too sweet?

I’ve melted :D

About two weeks ago, he disappeared. I mean, he’s still here, still working, still update his BBM’s statuses but there’s no greeting for me. It feels like I am the one who he wants to run away from.

Once I gave a question for him, “Did I do something wrong? Or saying something stupid to you? I just thought that I have any mistakes to you so you mind to talk to me.” But he answered me, “No, baby, there’s no mistakes between you and I. I’m just in a problem with my family. I’ll clear it. No worries.”

I have no more questions with him. But, that’s the last conversation of us. He just walked away and I am standing then looking him as fool as I am. I can’t say anything. Then he offers me nothing as an explanation.

But most of all, I never regret this one month. I was in a really extremely happy moment with him. We were friend. We were couple. Now, we are friend.

Am I to relax? Yes, I am. He taught me how to walk, how to run, how to climb and how to crawl back to Allah. No one did that to me but he did. What an unforgettable lesson, even more than your saying “I love you”

So, Farok, thank you for giving me a-one-month-priceless-journey with you, as a sweetest couple.